Miscarrying… There’s No Need to be Ashamed


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On December 19, 2011, I woke up and planned to take a pregnancy test. I did not really think that it would be positive, but my body was telling me that I should take the test just to be sure. Plus we were about to head out of town. So I did not want to leave town with uncertainty. To my surprise, it came out positive! Although, in a bit state of denial, mostly for the hubby, it was exciting! It was almost Christmas, and we were expecting another sweet little child from God!

It was a joyous time with a joyous blessing being added! We left town and shared the news with our parents and siblings. We had not, however, shared the news with our two oldest kiddies. Once we finally did share the news with them, Kiddie number two did not seem to care and Kiddie numero uno did not believe us because I did not have a “big round belly.” (I love the point of view of kids!) Anyway, we spent time with our family and went on with our mini Christmas vacation.

We headed back home to Houston on December 23, 2011, and life was going well! We were already thinking of baby names and I had already started to figure out where the baby’s furniture would go whether it was a boy or a girl. I was making plans in my head and thinking about how the new dynamic of our family would be. Would this child say the hilarious things that the older two kiddies say? Would this child have the bright platinum blonde hair like the other two? Would this child have blue or brown eyes? I had begun to think about how it would go when I had the baby.

He/She was due on August 21, 2012. This was right before Kiddie numero uno started Kindergarten. So, how were all of these life changing events going to play out? I had begun to think about the next Christmas. I would then have a 5-year old, a 4-year old, and a 4-month old. Everything about the future was on my mind. Everything about the present was on my mind. Focusing on what I could and could not eat was on my mind.


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